you dont love me.
i want to die.
that hurt more than my mom beating me.
my dad leaving.
and the cuts i made last night.
you dont love me.
i want to die.
that hurt more than my mom beating me.
my dad leaving.
and the cuts i made last night.
i still don’t have enough strength to delete this.
or do anything for that matter.
i just feel like bitching everyone out.
maybe there’s a time for us in the future, because youknow it isn’t working now and we both know that. as much as we don’t wanna believe it.
i love you and you love me.
but i guess we don’t love the relationship.
our three months is in 9 days.
fuck.
hate everything.
bye.
(via snack-city)
im deleting this tomorrow.
because right now, i dont have enough strength
i dont have enough strength. period.
i really don’t get it.
i hate when our relationship is bi polar. we go from laughing and giggling, and then 5 seconds later, theres so much tension you can slice it like butter.
it get annoyed because i start thinking and analyzing in my head, that if it continues it will be the end. i dont ever want it to be the end for us. and all i want to do, is make things better. but sometimes i can’t, even if i try as hard as i can.
i’m not even remotely mad at you, but you hanging up on me. “fine ill do it for you.”
put tears in my eyes, and i dont know why it bothered me so much. it just did.
i have insecurities in my insecurities. and i dont think you fully understand my aspect. and how when i view things, i view them in a totally different way.
i just want you to be able to talk to me, like we talked about before. when we got back together. ):
i dont want things to be like before.
i love you, so much. and i dont want things to be like this.
you’re my world.
i have to go..
look at us.
just fucking look at us, look how happy we are together.
we might go through HELL and back. but it’s because even if we do end up going to hell, we’re going down together.
i love you.
i love your smile.
i love hymning to you when you sleep.
kissing you before bed.
and i can kiss you forever. because you are my forever. and forever is just our beginning.
i love you so much Azriel Ayiana.
never forget that.
i tend to make you smile like that^^ for the rest of our life.
p.s. i hope Scarlett & Bentley have your beautiful smile.
the beginning to the end.
i really don’t even know what to say or do with myself anymore.
without you, i’m nothing.
but with you, our fighting can get worse.
and worse.
i could just end up hurting you in the end.
i dont want that.
i want you to myself and only me.
but that seems impossible.
everyone wants you.
but no one can want you as much as me.
i wish you would realize.
i cant talk about this anymore.
ill go even more insane than i already am.
we’re on a hill but which way do we go?
today we had our highlights and our scribbles in our novel. a lot got to me, and a lot got to you. i just wish you trusted me more. i mean, i am your girlfriend. and we need to learn to listen to eachother & understand the other one. instead of cutting eachother off. but all in all, we made up like we always do. and thank god we did. i wouldnt trade you for the world or even to a demi lovato concert. every ounce, every cup, every liter, every kiloliter. with every bone in my body. i love you dont ever forget that.
